Wednesday, May 8, 2013

Looking up

It's been a while since I posted to this blog.

Actually, when I make these "it's been a while" posts, it's usually after several months of not writing (on my other blogs), so in retrospect, I think I'm doing pretty well thankyouverymuch.

What's new?  Well, I'm still a director, but that will come to an end.  Not too soon, but close enough for me to say something about it.  I'm not going to go into too many details yet...but man, what a wild year it has been.

I have mixed feelings.  A sense of relief, but also a small sense of terror, tinged with apathy and loathing because crap, I hate looking for a new job.  I hate paperwork too.

At the same time, I've been embracing pen and paper again, because I haven't drawn consistently in four months. That's a long time, especially since I used to draw every other day.  The sacrifice of giving that up was worth it for a short while.  I've learned a lot, and I'm grateful for the experience, but now it's time to move on.  It's getting to the point where I'm not learning anything new anymore, and that's a sign.

Because of this, I'm faced with old demons of doubt and uneasiness, not quite sure where to go from here.  I've been asking myself a lot of questions lately.  People tell me that I'll be fine, and that's nice to hear, but will I really?  It's a tough market out there.

I get into these spirals of doubt and self pity, and it's paralyzing.  And maddening.

Look, I don't know why I decided to write this post, but I did. So I better sum it up and get on with my life and take some sort of action because dammit, something has to change.

Here are the questions.

Where do I want to go from here?  What will get me a job?  Are all studios like this? Do I have to move to LA?  I hate LA.

And then I paused, because I realized that I was asking the wrong questions.

I took a deep breath.

What do you want to do?

I want to work in the animation industry

What can you do to get to that point?
Create your storyboarding portfolio.  Apply.  Apply.  Apply.  Don't stop.  Pronto.

How long will this take?

Possibly forever.  

So get going now.

1 comment:

  1. Thank You Sarah for posting this. Just remember that there is a greater story that you're living out. Perhaps you can't see the big picture, but you will when you look back later on. Don't lose Hope. I wish I could write more without sounding too mushy.